The other day, I had a full-on crying session at the gym.

Not the quiet, hold-it-together kind. The kind where it all comes up at once—raw, unfiltered, and impossible to ignore.

Because right now, I’m working through a lot.

I’m changing every habit and pattern I have around eating, and it’s not a small adjustment. It’s hours a day—five to seven—of rewiring how I nourish and care for my body.

At the same time, I’m shifting how I run my business. I’m creating space for more creativity, more self-expression, and making everything I do easier to digest—for me and for the people I serve.

I’m restructuring my calendar so I can actually live my life while doing all of this. Not just exist inside of it.

And underneath all of that, there’s deeper work happening.

I’m weeding through the most tender parts of my heart—clearing out distortions around love and relationships so that I can open myself up to love again.

I’m forgiving myself for the damage I’ve left behind. The failed relationships. The broken promises. The times I didn’t have the tools to show up the way I wanted to.

And I’m continuing to reopen my heart, even when it stings. Even when every instinct says to shut it back down and walk away.

So this morning, it all hit.

“It’s too much.”
“I’m not equipped.”
“I can’t do this.”

Those were the thoughts running through my head as I walked on the treadmill, crying in the middle of a public gym. (You’re welcome to everyone who witnessed that moment.)

It was tender. There’s no other word for it.

But something shifted after that.

I got the support I needed. I let myself be held in it instead of pushing through it. And slowly, I came back into a softer, calmer place.

From there, clarity returned.

Lines were drawn around what I’m no longer willing to experience.

Internal boundaries were set.

And at the very same time—all of this is happening—I’m still experiencing incredible wins.

One of my clients made $1.5 million in profit on a recent investment and tripled their original investment.

Another client resigned and received $35,000 in cash.

A $100,000 investment I thought I had lost transformed into a mentorship that became even more valuable than the original investment.

Every day, I’m receiving messages of gratitude from clients and students whose lives are changing.

So here’s the truth that doesn’t get talked about enough:

These things exist at the same time.

The breakdown and the breakthrough.
The tears and the wins.
The healing and the success.

This is what it actually looks like to live—and run a business—rooted in your soul-driven passions.

It’s not clean. It’s not perfectly timed. It’s not always graceful.

It’s honest.

It’s present.

It’s an open heart choosing to stay open, even when it would be easier to close.

And it’s entirely possible to do meaningful, impactful work in the world while still being deeply, fully human.

Both can exist.

And today, they did.
Abi💜