𝐀 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞//

I have been moving some deep grief through my body.

I found out last week that I have Hashimoto’s disease.

And it’s not the discovery that caused me grief.

It’s that it has been obvious something was severely wrong for 7 years, but my relationship with my body was so entirely absent, that after one blood test that said I was fine, I just accepted that this was my fate.

I sat in shock and horrified awe for most of Wednesday as it sank in how little I had advocated for myself.

How many years had passed that I could have been treating it. How much emotional pain I had endured at losing my hair and my identity.

And I had an equal level of gratitude.

If Samuel and I hadn’t started talking about this, if we hadn’t created FrequencEase… I may never have paused long enough to take a closer look at what was wrong with me.

It’s amazing to me as we lead our class through connecting with their body, what’s coming up for them too. Big stuff!

It’s fascinating that we aren’t taught how to have a loving, devotional, nurturing relationship with our bodies.

At best, it’s utilitarian, we treat it like a car. It’s got to last us, so we treat it well.

At worst, we have a hateful, resentful, abusive relationship with our bodies. One that, as Sam so eloquently puts it, we would get divorced from if we could, but since that’s not an option we stick with punishment and neglect instead.

A relationship with our bodies isn’t prioritized because there aren’t metrics that are valued by society, besides vanity metrics, and again, those are more utilitarian.

It’s a lot to take in. A lot of gratitude and forgiveness, awe and grief.

I spent over $200,000 on my business last year and $0 on my health.

I’m ready for the next level! Self-devotion through food choices: here I am. Take me!

I’ll leave you with one question: If you had to go to marriage counseling with your body, what would your body have to say about you?