It’s okay for things to be easy 𝒂𝒏𝒅 for you to be happy//

And if you feel instant skepticism when you read that, please stick with me

Coz historically… me too.

This is something my body is integrating today.

I had a wobbly moment earlier.

It started when I tried on a shirt I have been 𝑤𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 to fit into since I bought it. I got it during the first year of the pandemic when, after watching Frozen 2, I decided I was going to dress like Elsa. All the time.

Not for anyone. Since everyone was only seeing me shoulders up

Just for me.

But when it (and it’s matching blue twin) arrived, it was too small

I’ve tried it on 5 times since then, and today it fit! I was elated! 

Also today we had our first class of 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫. And it went sooooo well.

So easy. So fluid. No confusion. No pushback from students. Just…. really well.

That’s when things went sideways

I started feeling discontent. I wanted to do 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒.

I had a conversation with Samuel about what I was experiencing and very quickly I realized what was happening.

While crying tears of gratitude, I realized I had hit a ceiling of how happy I’m allowed to be, while also experiencing so much ease in my life.

Because the truth is, life is hard because we make it hard. Humans are masters at overcomplicating things.

We are also deep believers that anything worth having must be worked hard for.

And there’s a creepy narrative that pops up every once in a while that happiness doesn’t exist. And everyone is actually miserable, they’re just pretending they’re not. And that’s just the way it is. 

So to experience so much joy, while feeling so much ease was completely foreign to me and it short-circuited my brain for a moment. It rubs up against any old, outdated programming I was handed by society and invites me to powerfully step into a new way.

So if you are tired of things being hard.

Or feeling unhappy.

Or both. Join me.

I am choosing myself and to believe that life can be easy 𝐀𝐍𝐃 I can be happy.