The pressure to find your calling may be the very thing keeping you from it.

Did you know that most people will spend over 90,000 hours of their lives working?

Ninety thousand.

That's a huge chunk of your life to spend wondering whether you're doing the "right" thing.

A huge chunk of your life to spend feeling unfulfilled, disconnected, or quietly asking yourself:

"What's my true purpose?"

I used to believe that if I didn't figure out my grand purpose, I was wasting my life.

And not in an abstract way.

I could feel the pressure.

I could feel the seconds on the clock ticking by.

Every year that passed without some crystal-clear revelation felt like evidence that I was somehow behind.

So I chased.

I chased jobs.

I chased projects.

I chased businesses.

I chased opportunities.

Each time thinking:

"Maybe this is it."

"Maybe this is the thing that will finally make me feel fulfilled."

"Maybe this is the thing that will make everything click into place."

And every time I reached the thing, the feeling would come back.

The uncertainty.

The searching.

The sense that there was still something I hadn't figured out yet.

For years, I thought purpose was something I needed to find.

Like it was hidden somewhere outside of me.

Waiting.

And if I could just search hard enough, think hard enough, or work hard enough, eventually I'd discover it.

But what I've come to believe is very different.

I don't think your purpose is something you find.

I think your purpose is something you are.

I know that might sound overly simplistic.

Hang with me for a moment.

Because if you've spent years carrying the pressure of figuring out why you're here, this might be one of the most liberating things you'll ever hear.

What if your purpose isn't a specific career?

What if it isn't one perfect business?

What if it isn't some massive mission that changes the world?

What if your purpose is simply being fully and authentically yourself?

The version of you underneath all the conditioning.

Underneath all the expectations.

Underneath all the roles you've been taught to play.

The world spends an incredible amount of time telling us who we're supposed to be.

Parents tell us.

Teachers tell us.

Bosses tell us.

Social media tells us.

The culture tells us.

And after enough years, it's easy to forget who we were before all those opinions arrived.

So we start searching for ourselves.

When really, we were never lost.

We've just been buried.

Buried beneath layers of "should."

Buried beneath expectations.

Buried beneath fear.

Buried beneath the belief that we need to become someone else before we're worthy.

The pressure to find your purpose creates a strange trap.

It keeps your attention focused somewhere in the future.

Somewhere out there.

Somewhere you haven't arrived yet.

Meanwhile, your actual life is happening right now.

Your gifts are showing up right now.

Your authentic self is trying to emerge right now.

And you're too busy searching to notice.

What if there is nothing missing?

What if you aren't behind?

What if your purpose isn't waiting to be discovered?

What if it's simply waiting to be lived?

Not someday.

Not when you finally figure everything out.

Today.

As you are.

Because the world doesn't need another version of someone else.

It needs the version of you that has been there all along.

The one underneath all the noise.

💜 Abi